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Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Hi Everyone! Hope you're well! Happy February! The last few days, I realized, there are a couple of things, that I have to really work on. Things that I am continuing to do and they have to stop! So, I was thinking of my choice of words. I feel I am doing well, with the healing process I am going through on loving myself and accepting myself and others and "trying" to change old patterns, but like I said, there are two things that I am still struggling with. So along with saying, I choose, I am now saying, I commit! I truly commit to heal myself, to love myself, to accept myself, fully!

Once I make progress, I will share what the two things are, that I am working on!

Lots of times, when I am meditating, my mind takes me places, and while I am searching, I have to do things. Like my painting. So, I decided to paint the top of my dresser! LOL! I know this won't be for everyone, but I love the way it turned out!
Here are some close up pictures. I had to get a ladder, to look down on it. Too bad I couldn't get it in one photo!
I went to Value Village and found a cool plate for some of my stones and crystals. I think it looks excellent with my painting.
I have to admit, I didn't want to put anything on top of it. That's how much I loved what I created. But, for now I had to! Here are some pics, with my little treasures on top.
I know it looks like a lot, but it really isn't! LOL!
Hope you had some fun looking at my creation!
Big Hugs 

Thursday, January 28, 2016

Hey Everyone!
I have to say thanks again! I read each and everyone of your comments over and over again. I see on this journey I'm going through, that many of you are going through it too. And, some of you have went through it and are giving me some great advice! All of you have touched my soul with what you say!

I am so fortunate to have such a special group of friends around me! And,  when I say friends, I mean that! I know so many people say, you can't really have friends over the internet. Well, I say bullshit!

Last night, I kept thinking, in order for all this change to take place, every situation that I deal with, has to change. Especially, if it is a situation, that has repeated itself.

Well, today, something else happened. A couple of little situations happened, but I kept my cool and just kept repeating to myself, Stacy, I love you. Then, a major situation happened. A situation that has happened before. It was like an out of body experience! I knew what all the words and flare ups would be. And, then it was put on me. (before, I would have yelled and argued and felt sorry for myself.) I will be honest, I wanted nothing to do with this. But, I believe everything happens for a reason, and I have promised myself, to try to do everything with as much positivity as I can in my life now. No more poor me's! So, I agreed to it.

Before I tell you anymore, I have to say, I have been seeing a lot of repetitive numbers around, like 11, 222, 333, 444, and so on. But, mostly forms of groups of 11. I've been reading about this too. Very interesting and all good.

Anyways, during this all happening, I thought ok, I will make it an excursion. Who knows what will happen. It will be a great day. I know this in my heart, because I am on the right path.

I didn't know which day, this excursion was going to take place yet. The appointment was made and I was told the date. When I heard the date, I smiled inside and said, thank you. The date is February 11th!!!!

Again, I have to say, I am proud of myself. I didn't make excuses, or played the poor me card (like another person did or what I would have done before). I have faced it head on! And, I was awarded with my February 11th date! Hurray! LOL!

There is one other thing, I am slowly working on, and once I get really on track, I will be sharing it! Well, two things, I have to stop with the nail biting! I was doing well, but then today happened! I'm taking everything one day at a time! I know everything won't change over night!

Enough about me! LOL! I have some new aceo's (2.5" x 3.5") to show you! I had a lot of fun creating these! Enjoy!

"Mummy Baby Crow"
"Roasting Marshmallows"
"Picking Flowers"
"First Kiss"
Big Hugs!!!



Monday, January 25, 2016

(long post, grab a drink!)
I'm proud of me! Last night, something was said to me (from someone close) and it was the way it was said, that wasn't nice. I took a deep breath, digested the words and just walked away. I actually went outside. I looked up into the night sky and kept repeating to myself, Stacy, I love you. I said that around 6 times and ended with, I choose to be happy.

Before, I would have came back with some not nice words and probably an argument would have started. Making me feel guilty, in which I would have probably went out to buy something, to make up, when I really did nothing wrong. Or, I would have kept everything inside of me, felt sorry for myself, cried and went and had a chocolate bar. Or, I would have worried about things and started to bite my nails!

When this happened last night, I thought, nope, things are changing! I love myself! Nothing is going to change in my life, if the same old patterns happen. When I came in from outside, I was happy! I had let go and I didn't feel guilty.

When the morning came around, the same thing was mentioned to me. This person tends to repeat things, until they feel they have got their point across. When the words came out this time, it was said, in a different way, nicer. I felt, I could say what I felt, so I did, in a good way. They still had to make their point at the end, making them feel, they were right, but I was happy inside. It was a lighter conversation. That would have never happened before. Now, you might think they still did control the conversation and the outcome, but they really didn't. I was smiling inside! I was happy.

As I said before, I truly accept the ones that are closest to me, for who they are. I am truly healed with them. I guess last night really showed that. I know this journey has just started with me and I know there will be days, that I will be pissed off, (maybe not?), but as long as I never forget to love myself, that's all that matters! The one thing, I am still very calm. Never before in my life, have I felt this way!

I did create some new aceo's! (2.5" x 3.5") I haven't painted any aceo's in over a year! It was kind of weird, because I wanted to put so many layers on the backgrounds, like how I have been doing with my larger paintings. I couldn't of course, but I think I got a good look out of them. Enjoy.

"Dance"

"Nesting"(I know you don't see a lot of the crow in this one, but I like how it looks like the crow is actually building the nest. That is what I was concentrating on.)
"Purple Sunset"

Thanks again, for all of you being on this journey with me!
Big Hugs!